I want to share my story. I want to journal my journey, to not only give me a place to document what is happening to me and it’s affects, but I want others, similar to me, to read this and know they’re not alone. Like you…
Up and down - symptoms here - symptoms not. Hot flushes ahoy - take temperature but it's fine. Menopause? Tacky head - a blast of fire through my cheeks and a glaze of sweat on my forehead. I look like a Christmas ham! Wouldn't it be just fab if I went through...
The joys of chemotherapy. I wake up feeling fine. I'm not sick - I'm not hot - I can move freely again. As the day progresses my analytical mind starts to believe I've took one big 15 hour hit and now I'm going to be OK. I'll be fine and dandy as I skip through the...
You just know it is chemo day. Eyes open. Yep. Chemo today. I used to get that similar feeling on a Sunday. Know what I mean? It just feels like a certain day. And that has settled in with chemo day - every third Wednesday. I would know the smell and feel of the day...
I head into the last weekend before chemo feeling a variety of feelings. SADNESS - My body is going to get another kicking and I'm not going to feel myself for a while ANGER - I can't do anything to stop this. My treatment is a process and I have to work though each...
Cancer brings with it a list of 'firsts' for you to gleefully tick off as you go! Tonight on my list, I got to wash my wig for the first time. CHECK.... I procrastinated for about two hours. I wanted to but daren't. Scared I'd damage it and be bald forever more....
I have not written since last month - sounds a long time but it's only a few days. So welcome August. I usually embrace this month as it means I have the summer off to be at home and see my family and friends. However, August - if you are listening - hurry up and get...
When a client does not show for their counselling appointment I record them as a DNA - 'Did Not Attend'. My Monday chemo crash was a DNA. I am beyond happy right now. Monday came and left without the dismal feelings of general un-wellness, and shitty, yucky, bland...
I f***ing hate steroids. The necessary evil but the one contributory factor to chemo belly. My gut is bloated and my jeans are sooo tight. Uncomfortable. I've increased my water intake, taking linseed, Actimel - doing a bit more this time round to help ease some of...
I am writing about these two days together as you'd struggle to differentiate between them. The new anti-sickness concoction seems to be doing better than the last. This cycle so far seems to be going better than the second one. I'm sleeping, eating, coping well,...