I want to share my story. I want to journal my journey, to not only give me a place to document what is happening to me and it’s affects, but I want others, similar to me, to read this and know they’re not alone. Like you…
Saturday night sadness At least I slept. Zopiclone helped and I wake up feeling like I have rested. Inside I feel raw. The edges of my skin are burning, tingling with the effects of the treatment. Familiar. So I get up and get on with it. We are having work done on...
Over 48 hours in and I'm still feeling OK. Not great - not well - not normal - but OK. OK is such a good place to be after chemo. OK was never enough or acceptable in my old life. You learn to manage your expectations when you have cancer. A good lesson I think. One I...
I have been awake since 01:10 am - I lay there for 4 hours. It went by so fast. Normally drags in the night but the clock was kind. Makes a change. My husband gets up at 05:30 am and goes to the gym. I didn't hear him leave so I'm guessing I'd dozed off. My chemo...
I know now. A full 24 hours have gone by and the feeling of yesterdays poignant consideration is still overwhelming me. I'm saddened and shocked by the process of reasoning I have gone through since yesterday. I know what I didn't want...... I didn't want to vomit....
A mixture of two halves - Saturday rain, and as it's weekend~3 I'm feeling OK. Sunday it didn't stop raining. So I try and get some marking done and clean the house. I take my time. I am slowing down and tasks now take me much longer. I'm coming to terms with this in...
As my rabbits dine out on chantenay carrots and purple sprouting broccoli (yes they eat better than me), I sit and ponder over the day. Oncologist appointment. I felt he couldn't wait to get off the phone from me, but he did day some of the right things in the right...
When I am feeling well - I do not care any where near as much about the chemo. I have felt well today, and the last few days. It has been such a welcoming feeling. I have loved it - but you never stop looking over your shoulder for the kick, Sad really, as I try to...
Well, I will start with he truth. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer I did not think I would see my 47th birthday. They may sound dramatic and naïve now - nearly 5 moths in - but I really thought I was going to die from the 4cm grade 3 stranger that was nuzzling...
By 08:30am, I had the beef in the slow cooker, bread ingredients in the bread machine, leek and potatoe soup bubbling away nicely on the hob, and the bedding in the washing machine. As I whirl about my kitchen liked some crazy domestic bald goddess, I look like I...