I want to share my story. I want to journal my journey, to not only give me a place to document what is happening to me and it’s affects, but I want others, similar to me, to read this and know they’re not alone. Like you…
It's not like me not to bounce out of bed and get on with my day. But the quilt has concrete in it this morning. I'm reminded of the dog. When it's cold or wet he stands at the door sniffing the air. Not sure why he does that? I'm doing the same - I sniff to see what...
Not my best day. Cancer chatter came back. Must be grateful as I haven't had this for almost a week now. Senses heightened by a friend of mine who is having her operation tomorrow. I have told you about her already - the ex-student now friend. I honestly ache for her....
Receive cancer diagnosis and location ✓ Get told it's aggressive and growing quickly ✓Have added pressure of a cystic component to the recipe ✓Have numerous sometimes painful procedures to see if its on the move ✓Get the unbelievably brilliant news that they can't see...
Me and my girls Saturday night Thank God for sleeping tablets. I'm not taking them every day but I was so tired last night and the filling in my mind was getting worn out. So I helped the little fella out - he's knackered too. So my mind and I wake up feeling good. I...
I have googled what happens at an oncologist appointment. It turned out to be a total waste of time. Nothing I read came close to the feeling I had when being told I was going to be having 8 cycles of chemotherapy starting next Wednesday. Nothing will ever convey the...
OK, as I write this now I have had wine. It's the day after my results. I do not care right now. A reminder of how life used to be. It's great! Six to eight clients a day - or if not - I'd be working ten/twelve hours a day and loving it. Hell I was busy - but I was...
I'm sitting in the breast clinic looking at two dust balls gathering under a dark brown coffee table. I wonder how long they have been there? Dust, hair, dirt and grime. Big enough to pick up and hold. Surely the cleaners can see those? Then I spot another one under...
I walk into a small windowless room to the images of my cancer ridden breast on two different screens. I sit close to the small, pretty and petite lady. Weird. No two metes distance here. It actually feels very comforting. She has a pink A4 folder on a small desk -...
There. First week in the 20% club done. Named as 80% of breast lumps examined and biopsied are benign. Mine clearly wasn't. Looking back now - actually not too bad. Is this a way of me protecting myself and preparing for the day ahead or is this my reality? I am not...