I want to share my story. I want to journal my journey, to not only give me a place to document what is happening to me and it’s affects, but I want others, similar to me, to read this and know they’re not alone. Like you…
So, to radiotherapy I go. I had a fair few weeks with no treatment. Plenty of aches, pains, fatigue and the like but my body was beginning to take the big strides it needed to, to get away from cancer treatment. I was eating better, starting to run again, and loosing...
It appears living with no obvious cancer in my body is the same as living with it. I am anxious, scared and feel pain everywhere. I have spent the last 6 days convincing myself I have it in my brain. It has travelled up there somehow, and all the lymph nodes and tests...
Three days before Christmas I answered the phone to the Consultant. The same person who operated on me just under 4 weeks ago. She rang with 'good news'. There was no cancer found in the breast tissue removed from my lumpectomy. I already knew there was no cancer...
Well almost. I am just over two weeks on from my operation. I have written nothing since the night of my op. I have not wanted to. I have not wanted to sit and think and write about having cancer and having an operation to see if it is still present. I have been in...
I feel a gentle nudge on my shoulder. It's 6.14am. A nurse has woken me up for my obs. I had only got to sleep just after 3am. I was thinking through the night. Over and over - on loop - from the cannula going in, to the anesthetic, to be woken up, to being back in my...
Leaving my husband at the lift door was heartbreaking. I was full of anxiety and over filled eyes. I am so vulnerable and crying. I want to go home with him, not up to the first floor of the Peony Suite in the breast clinic. I have about 4 seconds to compose myself...
It is now 30/11/20 13:18 pm. I am sat in ward 7 at my local hospital. I am in room 5. I am waiting for a small procedure this afternoon, where a small wire will be inserted into my breast to mark where the surgeon needs to go in tomorrow. My lumpectomy is booked for...
The day has arrived. It is here. My final chemo. The last day I will ever get pumped full of this poisonous toxic medicine that has been my constant companion since 10/06/20. When I first walked in the unit, I was scared, anxious and tears filled the spaces where my...
Today feels heavy. But I don't! 1.5 pounds off!! YAY!! I knew something wasn't right, so I will once again, encourage you to listen to your gut feelings, your hunches, your body sounds and silences, and ask for help. Reach out and talk to your health professionals and...