I went to a Homeopath yesterday too. There’s a South Wales organization called ‘The Old Mill’ who offer free professional treatments to people living with or living on from cancer.
All the girls I have encountered have been kind, warm and understanding. I had a two hour assessment for the homeopathic treatments. It felt more like a therapy session and I shared these feelings with the Homeopath. She literally sat for all this time – asking me questions and writing down my responses. At one point I looked over to see her circle the number ‘7’ at the top right hand corner of the A4 sheets. By the time I left she had full receipt of about 70% of my life story. From my redundant parents, my dysfunctional childhood, my first destructive marriage, the neglect and abuse I’d felt at the hands of others, my balanced diet, my alcohol consumption, guilt, my 3 births stories, my sleep hygiene, my cancer, my passion for my work, my desire to be self sufficient and self-governing, the boundaries I have created in my healthy (and unhealthy friendships), every side effect I’d have thrown at me and the ability I have to be mentally strong and self-aware.
I actually checked in with her at the end of the session, concerned for her well-being having been totally Heidi-ed for 120 minutes. She smiled gracefully and relayed her feelings. She felt OK and suggested this data is going to be very useful in allowing her to find the most effective and remedy that will treat the whole of me. You know what I am like with ‘parts’ of me so this felt strange but appealing. The whole of me is effected by the cancer and the treatment. So, crack on – and treat the whole of me!
I leave, popping with hope. These small pills will be arriving in the next few days and I’m squeaking with optimism about how they are going to work. They will work. They’ll clear out my body and mind and scoop out all the life altering feelings I have had for almost 4 months now. I’m a bit grumpy I did not look for this support earlier.
Mentally I have been strong – I even sent video messages to a few close friends . This has been the way we have communicated thanks to work, time zones and life – life just doing what life does and gets in the way!
Strange seeing me back on video to my friends. I have not done it for so long. My hair was looking fab, still holding the curls from chemo day where I spruced up. But I have noticed my face is looking wider, fuller – less shapely.
It is my birthday in a few days and I am looking to that day to publish this properly – my marketing manager (my husband!) is very keen for me to do this. So now I have a deadline and I am scared. Anxious to f*** actually. I don’t so social media – you know that but I am going to have to. I am going to have no control over who see’s the last 5 months of my life – I want some people to see it – but not all. But once it is out it is out. I do not want sympathy. I do not want anyone to feel sorry for me and say so. I want strength, recognition and empathy and more than anything else in the whole wide world right now – I want you – you – that may be starting your journey, in the middle of your journey or at the end or even beyond, to read one sentence and say ‘I get that’.
If you wanted to contact Lucie go to her webpage www.luciehomepathy.com
The Old Mill Foundation can be found here: http://www.oldmillfoundation.co.uk