I am in a tall slim box, stood up. I can see out. It’s made of steel bars and I’m gripping on to the contraption screaming for someone to let me out.
Faceless tall figures drift around me but don’t see me. They’re just doing nothing except move around me – floating. They are all wearing dark cloaks and their faces are white. A mish-mash of greys, blacks and whites circling me like lions around their defenseless prey.
I can’t scream any louder than I am doing
I’m crying out for their help. I can see a padlock on the outside of my steel coffin, and with outstretched fingers, I try my best to grab it. I want to pull it off. But I can’t reach it. I can feel waves of sweat falling down my chest and splash to the floor. It’s literally pouring out of me and the soles of my feet are now sodden. I’m paddling in sweat and fear.
Suddenly half a dozen or so of these faceless creatures form a circle around me. Their chant haunts me…
.…” 1 – 2 Cancer’s coming for you……”
….” 3 – 4 it’s knocking on your door…..”
….” 5 – 6 it’s going to get it’s fix…..”
….” 7-8 they’ve left it too late…..”
….” 9-10 you’re going to get it again…..”
As they draw in closer their deathly chants get louder and louder. I can’t move. They’re so close to me I can smell their moisture rich breathe as they continue to yell their cruel words. They’re trying to kill me and I can’t get away. I’m panting at them to stop – I reach through my bars and scratch at them but it’s dark air I feel. As the darkness wraps itself around me, I fall to my knees. I want it to stop but no one is here listening to me. I am on my own in a cell. Trapped. Victimized and alone.
Then I wake up. 03.36 am. It feels like hours but it was only minutes until I shook myself awake and brought myself back into my bedroom.
Have you noticed that some dreams evaporate almost immediately on waking where others linger for longer and you can press ‘replay’ on them over and over again? This one went nowhere. An hour later and it’s still on loop – not losing any of its power or effect.
I’ve just experienced and been imprisoned in my very own terrifying cancer cell. And I’m not referring to the ones in my body.