I cannot get on top of life. I feel I am drowning in work and can’t find the arm bands let alone the life jacket. I have so much to do and now the college term has started I’m feeling it stacking up and it feels frightening. Even the sound of a door banging sets me off into such a state of panic and despair.
I’m weighing up trying to cope with chemo and cope with life. I’m not succeeding and I don’t know what to do to make this work. I’m experiencing such erratic mood swings. I don’t feel capable to trust my feelings and instincts. I’ve never ever felt more out of control and it frightens the s*** into me. I need some help, but this is the problem. I don’t like asking for it.