Today I ran for the first time since diagnosis. I ran my fastest miles. With every step I bounce down I imagine a cell being crushed. I have energy this morning and my music reminds me I am alive. I am still me but a different me. Sounds weird but as one jogging step takes me further I feel empowered. I can run this out of me surely? Feeling strangely light, I create my mantra, ‘The cancer has not spread’. There. I will anchor to that today.
Changed mantra – my sister reminded me the universe doesn’t recognize ‘ do not’ – plus I want to omit the ‘C’ word. So now it has become a variation of this ‘I am healthy and happy and well’. From here I touched peace. I put myself in a bubble and I focus on feeling closer to normal than I have been recently. I will think myself well. I have brought so much to my life over the last years from believing I will have what I want or I already have it. I read ‘The Secret’ by Rhonda Burns in 2017 and it transformed the way I think and feel. From new windows to my car. I manifested it all through the power of the law of attraction. If you haven’t read it it is worth a go. I am not going to try and convince you it is for you. It worked for me. It is not for everyone. But back then I was so low and so desperate and so scared, I would have tried anything. I am sure I will share more of these times with you as we go on.
I have the book by my bed – so I refresh myself and flip to the chapter on ‘health’. It really does help me focus and gather myself, and the mantras keep coming through.
As the sun turned down its temperature, it didn’t take my mood with it. I felt in control and in charge – like I had some of the answers now. What a difference from the last 48 hours. Just a few centimetres of cells who didn’t get the memo headed ‘My long and healthy life’.