Oct 16, 2020 | Uncategorized
Saturday night sadness At least I slept. Zopiclone helped and I wake up feeling like I have rested. Inside I feel raw. The edges of my skin are burning, tingling with the effects of the treatment. Familiar. So I get up and get on with it. We are having work done on...
Oct 16, 2020 | Uncategorized
Over 48 hours in and I’m still feeling OK. Not great – not well – not normal – but OK. OK is such a good place to be after chemo. OK was never enough or acceptable in my old life. You learn to manage your expectations when you have cancer. A...
Oct 14, 2020 | Uncategorized
I have been awake since 01:10 am – I lay there for 4 hours. It went by so fast. Normally drags in the night but the clock was kind. Makes a change. My husband gets up at 05:30 am and goes to the gym. I didn’t hear him leave so I’m guessing I’d...
Oct 12, 2020 | Uncategorized
I know now. A full 24 hours have gone by and the feeling of yesterdays poignant consideration is still overwhelming me. I’m saddened and shocked by the process of reasoning I have gone through since yesterday. I know what I didn’t want…… I...
Oct 11, 2020 | Uncategorized
A mixture of two halves – Saturday rain, and as it’s weekend~3 I’m feeling OK. Sunday it didn’t stop raining. So I try and get some marking done and clean the house. I take my time. I am slowing down and tasks now take me much longer. I’m...
Oct 9, 2020 | Uncategorized
As my rabbits dine out on chantenay carrots and purple sprouting broccoli (yes they eat better than me), I sit and ponder over the day. Oncologist appointment. I felt he couldn’t wait to get off the phone from me, but he did day some of the right things in the...
