Jun 2, 2020 | Uncategorized
I’m sitting in the breast clinic looking at two dust balls gathering under a dark brown coffee table. I wonder how long they have been there? Dust, hair, dirt and grime. Big enough to pick up and hold. Surely the cleaners can see those? Then I spot another one...
Jun 2, 2020 | Uncategorized
I walk into a small windowless room to the images of my cancer ridden breast on two different screens. I sit close to the small, pretty and petite lady. Weird. No two metes distance here. It actually feels very comforting. She has a pink A4 folder on a small desk...
Jun 2, 2020 | Uncategorized
There. First week in the 20% club done. Named as 80% of breast lumps examined and biopsied are benign. Mine clearly wasn’t. Looking back now – actually not too bad. Is this a way of me protecting myself and preparing for the day ahead or is this my...
Jun 2, 2020 | Uncategorized
I’m sat next to my husband driving towards the hospital. It’s a 50 minute drive. I find myself looking at different segments of the journey. A set of roadworks, a tree I run past weekly, and a roundabout I haven’t since since March 23rd (Covid)....
May 31, 2020 | Uncategorized
My daughter has a hamster. When he first wakes, you see him sniff the air – his tiny black eyes blink at his discoveries. I feel like him today – just now. I sniff in the morning air and scan my body. Am I still feeling healthy and happy? The pain of...
May 31, 2020 | Uncategorized
I have woken up with a cough – tickley – back of the throat needing clearing thing. I have had this before – comes then goes. Has it gone to my lungs? Didn’t sleep well either. In between dozy drop-offs I recite my mantra, ‘I am healthy...
