Chemo eve goodbyes

It’s not like me not to bounce out of bed and get on with my day. But the quilt has concrete in it this morning. I’m reminded of the dog. When it’s cold or wet he stands at the door sniffing the air. Not sure why he does that? I’m doing the...
Flat. Low. Don’t really know

Flat. Low. Don’t really know

Not my best day. Cancer chatter came back. Must be grateful as I haven’t had this for almost a week now. Senses heightened by a friend of mine who is having her operation tomorrow. I have told you about her already – the ex-student now friend. I honestly...

Cancer checklist

Receive cancer diagnosis and location ✓ Get told it’s aggressive and growing quickly ✓Have added pressure of a cystic component to the recipe ✓Have numerous sometimes painful procedures to see if its on the move ✓Get the unbelievably brilliant news that they...

Last weekend before chemo

Me and my girls Saturday night Thank God for sleeping tablets. I’m not taking them every day but I was so tired last night and the filling in my mind was getting worn out. So I helped the little fella out – he’s knackered too. So my mind and I wake...

From the Oncologist to Raquel Welsh

I have googled what happens at an oncologist appointment. It turned out to be a total waste of time. Nothing I read came close to the feeling I had when being told I was going to be having 8 cycles of chemotherapy starting next Wednesday. Nothing will ever convey the...

What actually matters now?

OK, as I write this now I have had wine. It’s the day after my results. I do not care right now. A reminder of how life used to be. It’s great! Six to eight clients a day – or if not – I’d be working ten/twelve hours a day and loving it....