Jun 13, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
Here it comes – the ‘Why me?’ feeling. Great. Happy Saturday Heidi. I’ve had a sickly feeling throughout the night. Woke very early to much of the same. Ginger tea and toast, meds then back to sleep. It takes a few hours to get up. I’m...
Jun 12, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
There is never a good time in anyone’s life to get cancer. I’m only now just able to say the word out loud properly. It’s such a soft, rounded, plump word, yet what it portrays is a vile, spiky, life-taking threat. I’m super sensitive to the...
Jun 11, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
The next morning…….. Lifting my eye mask, ear plugs pulled out, I scan my body then my mind. Did I sleep well? I don’t know. I can’t remember but I know I feel OK. Both body and mind appear aligned to one another. Both feel well and I let out a...
Jun 11, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
It happened that quick. Netflix one second – fast sprint to the bathroom the next. 11/06/20 ~ 21:31 ~ “I officially declare the side effects open” NOW HERE FOLLOWS A HEALTH WARNING TO ALL OF YOU READING THIS BEFORE YOU CARRY ON READING THIS YOU...
Jun 10, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
I was fine until I had to leave my husband at the door and walk in myself. It struck me how lonely I felt without him. He’s been by my side since diagnosis and now he cannot be with me now. Covid. I’m welling up walking toward the chemo unit. It’s so...
Jun 10, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
I feel OK. I am awake. I drop my eye mask and give my sight a few minute to adjust, pull out my ear plugs (husband snores) and wait for the fear and anxiety to awaken too and come and say hello. They don’t. Why are they ignoring me? Come on you pair of bastards,...
