“Ladies and gentleman, we bring to you tonight – live in Heidi’s crazy mind and NOT for one night only – put your hands together and give a warm welcome to the disease dip……” It’s tune starts to play as I prepare dinner...
If one more person tells me ‘I’ll smash it’, I will smash their f***ing face in. Cancer isn’t a game. You don’t get to take your turn on a playing field, score a rounder or a goal and go home full of admiration for your skill. Cancer is a...
One of my dearest friends lost her sister to cancer two years ago today. She needs quiet and space today. I text her very briefly to let her know my love, empathy and compassion are at the edge of her stillness. I know she’ll find today very hard. I have such a...
I am feeling so unwell. Terrible. I cannot find the words to tell you how I am feeling. My head weighs more than my car. My bones feel long – I can feel everyone of them trying to snap. My hips don’t work. My lips are sticky and I’m growing a cold...
I woke up at 02:11 – lay there thinking about my life. The last I remember was 04:44….. I thought about where I wanted to be a year from now. All being well I will be well again. Next summer. Maybe earlier. It seems such a long way away but as I have got...
I am a 46-year-old English woman living in Wales. Born and bred in Blackpool, Lancashire – I still hold dear to my roots. I have been with my husband for 18 years and we got married in 2005. I have been blessed to have had such a strong relationship with him for the...
