Jul 17, 2020 | Uncategorized
A different Oncologist phoned me Thursday. A lady. I was slightly disappointed it wasn’t the usual Doctor. It’s important to me to build up trusting relationships with my health professionals. I don’t like the fact it’s a phone call appointment...
Jul 14, 2020 | Uncategorized
I didn’t write yesterday as I had another dip and fought sickness, low mood and martyrdom all day. Work brought much needed periods of relief. But without that I just sank. By evening time the bleakness and utter contempt I had for my cancer diagnosis really did...
Jul 13, 2020 | Uncategorized
Can I talk about about what to do with anger? The theme continues for me….. when I am feeling low or vulnerable I tend to subconsciously reach to anger. It drives my thinking and almost possess me and my cognitive ability to exist. I create conversations in my...
Jul 12, 2020 | Uncategorized
I am now sat in my garden drinking Palma Violet gin, and wearing one of those snuggle blanket dresses my youngest daughter gave to me as I headed into cancer land a few weeks ago. I’ve put my hood up because my head is cold. I have just seen my gorgeous cat walk...
Jul 12, 2020 | Uncategorized
And the weekend turns out to be quite good in terms of human connectivity and normality. We went to my Welsh best friend’s house for dinner on Saturday night and on Sunday my husband’s parents came over for food – which was the first time we have...
Jul 10, 2020 | Uncategorized
There are two parts to post-chemo treatment. The part you are on your arse at 20:30 pm and crawling on your hands and knees to bed – begging for sleep to immerse you in it’s silence and pain-free space. Then there’s this part. It’s 00:19 am and...
