I was fine until I had to leave my husband at the door and walk in myself. It struck me how lonely I felt without him. He’s been by my side since diagnosis and now he cannot be with me now. Covid. I’m welling up walking toward the chemo unit. It’s so...
I feel OK. I am awake. I drop my eye mask and give my sight a few minute to adjust, pull out my ear plugs (husband snores) and wait for the fear and anxiety to awaken too and come and say hello. They don’t. Why are they ignoring me? Come on you pair of bastards,...
It’s not like me not to bounce out of bed and get on with my day. But the quilt has concrete in it this morning. I’m reminded of the dog. When it’s cold or wet he stands at the door sniffing the air. Not sure why he does that? I’m doing the...
Not my best day. Cancer chatter came back. Must be grateful as I haven’t had this for almost a week now. Senses heightened by a friend of mine who is having her operation tomorrow. I have told you about her already – the ex-student now friend. I honestly...
Receive cancer diagnosis and location ✓ Get told it’s aggressive and growing quickly ✓Have added pressure of a cystic component to the recipe ✓Have numerous sometimes painful procedures to see if its on the move ✓Get the unbelievably brilliant news that they...
Me and my girls Saturday night Thank God for sleeping tablets. I’m not taking them every day but I was so tired last night and the filling in my mind was getting worn out. So I helped the little fella out – he’s knackered too. So my mind and I wake...
