Jun 19, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
I am on form. I am close to who I was pre-diagnosis – I’m busy – working – marking assignments – ironing bedding – cleaning out the freezer. Living the life me! I woke up shining and my day remained bright. Today I am in charge and...
Jun 18, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
Today came and went – still feeling OK. It rained constantly today – the heavy thud of the drops could be heard all through the house. Quite comforting actually. I found a gap in it’s incessant work, and got to go for a short walk with my daughter....
Jun 17, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
“Ladies and gentleman, we bring to you tonight – live in Heidi’s crazy mind and NOT for one night only – put your hands together and give a warm welcome to the disease dip……” It’s tune starts to play as I prepare dinner...
Jun 17, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
If one more person tells me ‘I’ll smash it’, I will smash their f***ing face in. Cancer isn’t a game. You don’t get to take your turn on a playing field, score a rounder or a goal and go home full of admiration for your skill. Cancer is a...
Jun 16, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
One of my dearest friends lost her sister to cancer two years ago today. She needs quiet and space today. I text her very briefly to let her know my love, empathy and compassion are at the edge of her stillness. I know she’ll find today very hard. I have such a...
Jun 15, 2020 | Latest Thoughts, Uncategorized
I am feeling so unwell. Terrible. I cannot find the words to tell you how I am feeling. My head weighs more than my car. My bones feel long – I can feel everyone of them trying to snap. My hips don’t work. My lips are sticky and I’m growing a cold...
