Oct 21, 2020 | Uncategorized
Close to tears all day. The muscle pains tremor through me – wave after wave. In defiance I get my to do list an work my through it. A few tasks are scratched off quickly. Others migrate from week to week. I long to see the whole list scores through. The radio...
Oct 20, 2020 | Uncategorized
Five weeks ago I wore a new pair of shoes. They were lovely. A bargain in the Next sale. They rubbed the top of my feet – I thought nothing of it. New show wear in. Today the sores that are there now resemble an upside down mushroom. My skin no longer heals...
Oct 18, 2020 | Uncategorized
The first thing I did when I woke up at 06:17 am was to look for the person who had a stanley knife and was slicing away at my spine. They must be here somewhere. I put the torch on, on my phone scanning the room for the culprit. I wanted to punch them in the face...
Oct 16, 2020 | Uncategorized
Saturday night sadness At least I slept. Zopiclone helped and I wake up feeling like I have rested. Inside I feel raw. The edges of my skin are burning, tingling with the effects of the treatment. Familiar. So I get up and get on with it. We are having work done on...
Oct 16, 2020 | Uncategorized
Over 48 hours in and I’m still feeling OK. Not great – not well – not normal – but OK. OK is such a good place to be after chemo. OK was never enough or acceptable in my old life. You learn to manage your expectations when you have cancer. A...
