Cancer – 2 Heidi – 0

And the weekend turns out to be quite good in terms of human connectivity and normality. We went to my Welsh best friend’s house for dinner on Saturday night and on Sunday my husband’s parents came over for food – which was the first time we have...

A Nik Kershaw scarf

There are two parts to post-chemo treatment. The part you are on your arse at 20:30 pm and crawling on your hands and knees to bed – begging for sleep to immerse you in it’s silence and pain-free space. Then there’s this part. It’s 00:19 am and...

Finding your confidence

The summer has come off furlough and returned back to work today. Who knows for how long? It’ll probably go back into to lock down now I have said this. So, I bring my journal, my sunglasses and my very weak excuse for a glass of wine and sit outside in the...

The first step to anything is to say you can….

By 4am, I had eaten all my biscuits in my little plastic tub and was on my second brew. I caught up with personal/work emails as I sat listening to my husband snore and my stomach ask for more food. Steroids are clearly still taking their toll. I am not taking any...

Where are my eyelids?

Despite it’s best efforts to destroy me, I have had a reasonable few days. Weirdly yesterday was better than today. Getting back to counselling is definitely a tonic for me. I look forward to working with my clients today. I sometimes can’t reach for my...